new watermelon definition

We had an impromtu date at The Hills, Damansara Heights last Saturday night.

I now have a new definition of the word watermelon! At least it erases some old memories for me and replaced them with one that was worth remembering :)

I remember him asking me that night, "Err...why is it in a shape of a heart?" It sorta reminds me of me and all that corniness that I hate. He might have had the thought in his head that just because we looked like a couple they should carve out a specific symbol of love just to put us in the mood or something..I found it mildly amusing and aptly replied him with "Oh, its always a heart - I dont know why but it is what it is".

We were indulging that night - with a blend of various alcohol in that famous Watermelon Slushie which costs RM40 (we rarely order insanely expensive drinks) and a mini bucket of Salted Egg Calamari Rings for RM15 (pretty expensive late night snack which was lip-smackingly good).

We shared some pretty funny stories that night - including me acting like a total goofball - biting greedily into a somewhat large (larger than what I thought my mouth could fit) piece of watermelon, having its juice spill out from the sides of my mouth and dripping all over the table! Thank god I did not stain my white top! And having half chewed calamari falling out of mouth in mid sentence/laugh. I think that if he still kisses you and tells you how crazy he is for you after all that "embarassing" moments, he's definitely a keeper :)

Oh, and I almost forgot - he wiped his mouth with the same serviette that he used to kill a baby fly that I found in my glass of water...the look on his face was epic! LOL

We went for our first social gathering as an official couple last night. His friend Jane's birthday do at her apartment. Felt kinda odd/nice/surprising/weird in a way but new. I think I could get used to this - yeah, I'm sure I can.

Life has pretty much slowed down for me - I have lost the drive to exercise or hang out with my friends. Their conversations are getting more and more trivial to me. Can't keep up with the fake interest most of the time. And I'm getting FAT. I don't even dare step on the scales. Don't know what I'd do if I have permanently put on another kg or worse, realise that I can't wear my favourite dress anymore because I might just burst the seams. Some are getting a little tight and uncomfortable. Especially those toga dresses that I bought from Cotton On before. I feel FAT in it (insert big sigh here).

I am also on some sort of a wardrobe revamp. Clothes that I buy now are of the following criteria in no particular order:

1. Comfortable

2. Easy care

3. Unfussy ( I don't have to keep tugging on them or adjusting)

4. Coloured (trying to stay away from blacks)

5. Covered up on most body parts

6. Longer hemlines

7. More pants please

8. Vintage looking

9. Easy to pick and mix - I find that I'm growing out of my dresses phase

10. Makes me look like I'm actually 28 - not 19 or 25

Talking about being 28 - it just hit me that I'm nearing my big 3-0!

Perhaps I should do a before-i-hit-my-thirties list - a list of accomplishments if you will.

But I know I might not in the end - I don't see a need to. Everyone works on their own timeline. For me, as long as I am contently happy - as long as I have cash in the bank and my family is alive and well and my friends are within my reach and I have that special someone to spend the rest of my days with - I'm good. There really is nothing more that I could ask for. And everything else comes secondary.

For you, the one reading this - I wish you have a timeline of your own. Not one that is dictated by society or anyone else for that matter. Live your life, the way you see fit. Do whatever you want to do - have no regrets. Mistakes are always there to make so don't be afraid to make it. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't then just accept it - move on. The future is what you make of it. You just need to remember that you have the power in your hands to do whatever you want with your life.

Talking about power - I wish now that I have the courage to pick up and leave this country. I still haven't even though I have been saying it for a year now.

I need a plan - a Leave-This-Country plan. I think I shall start with saving a hefty sum in the bank first. Okay, gtg make that appointment to visit a bank to open an account this week.

But wait, I can't leave this country - have my family business to take care of now. I shall just start with that bank account first then eh? (Yes).